One Alcoholic's Journey, One Day at a Time
I grew up in a small town with a very loving family. I was treated for anorexia. It is a day to day recovery, however, alcohol finally became a problem about 6 years ago. At first it was the ability to date, meet men, and not have to be myself. I loved the feeling of being all powerful and in "control".
After losing my "friends", I discovered alcohol alone. I was one who liked drinking at home due to a happy, sad, good, bad day. I had many excuses. Now I know there are none.
Finally I realized my life was more than beyond what I could handle. I did not lose a job, family, or anything, however was falling apart inside.
I had been to AA meetings before thinking these people are crazy and I am sure they are really drunks so what difference does it make.
I had to surrender as I could not continue living this way with depression and loss of reality.
I lost sobriety several times. I would go a few days sober then "slip". I want to say I have made it my sobriety date by taking one day at a time. I found a sponsor, go to meetings and have found God in the way I know him. The support and fellowship of strangers now keeps me strong. I am happy to have been through the eating and alcohol problems as I have come to know myself better and hopefully will be able to help others in time.
I pray and believe and the thing that really keeps me going is the Serenity Prayer. It is something that I can not explain, but know it keeps me sober and happier today.
